sorry.....i'm really not good wit 'titles'....or 'headlines' in my to-be-field of work.....i think its a waste of time(prolly a case of sour grapes..... :-P).....actually....not really....sum titles(and headlines) can b extremely hard hittin.....its jus that i cant b bothered wit them....unless i come up wit sumthin almost immediately......i usually jus stick wit nethin random......a bad habit i no.....but i cant help it.....im super lazy....
thinkin bout it now.....ive neva really had 2 work hard at nethin in my life.....except losin weight.....that's one journey im neva likely 2 forget.....i was seriously OBSESSED.....gettin up really early.....sumtimes at 4 in the mornin.....2 go joggin....in bloody cold winter.....almost starvin myself(there were days wen i used 2 eat lik jus one apple....n i used 2 feel guilty bout it!).....n then runnin again fer 40mins in the eve...no matter wot time i come home.....God!....if sum1 asked me 2 do that again...i really don think i cud manage.....its a good thing that i wudnt b able 2......cause ya.....i was anorexic at one point of time....VERY anorexic.....*whew!*....there.....i said it.....its out in the open.....it took a lot 2 admit that in the first place.....n gettin ova it was harder.....but ive neva really told 2 many people bout it....up until now.....i jus hope that my experiences will help sum1 else.....fer every1 who's anorexic (i know its difficult 2 accept....but acceptance is the first step....) i jus wanna tell them that u can get ova it n lead a (fairly) normal life.....its difficult....but not so much that u cant do it.....fer all of u who arent.....i jus hope that u don have 2 go thro that hell(n trust me....it is HELL!).....
durin that phase.....i lost out on a good many friends.....n i lost out on a few good friends.....cause i was so cut-off n isolated from every1....i'd completely stopped meetin people....i dunno wot kinda whacked out logic it was.....but i was scared of meetin people because i thot they'd make me eat....(insane.....i know)....but im glad that atleast one of them is back in my life.....n how!......he's the reason im SO deliriously happy these days....n i have a feelin that its gonna last.....fer a VERY VERY long time.....ive also made a few new good friends.....n now i know that most of the people i knew earlier,i really cudnt count them as friends....acquaintances mebbe......in fact, most people i know even now are jus 'people i know'.....i mite call them friends....but they're jus a part of my 'social network'.....n u no wot i realised.....i am extremely lucky to have good friends....n a decent social network....cause without either one.....life's not complete......most people feel that good friends are all that one needs fer a wholesome existence....but a social network kinda makes u a part of society in a much broader sense.....think about it.....
enuff 'revelations' fer now methinks.....so v'll meet again....wen 'inspiration' strikes.....hope u lik wot uve seen so far....ciao.......
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